I'm getting sick.
I have tightness in my chest, a slight annoying cough and a stuffy nose.
Started today, afternoon-ish.
[delete line about smoking again]
This whole going to bed after 11pm thing and waking up at 6am isn't working.
However, I get some weird boost of energy in the late evening, made worse by taking Lunesta...
Wait, wait.
This wasn't supposed to be a blog entry.
I'm really just marking the date of my illness starting... to see if it manifests.
Hopefully not.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Achtung!
It has come to my attention that I am viewed as some sort of "evil woman".
Well, you are all right.
But I am in some excellent company.
Well, you are all right.
But I am in some excellent company.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Add It Up
"I have no patience for stupidity and could care less about authority."
[Yep. I came up with that all by myself.]
That pretty much sums up a good chunk of my day.
I must not have been the only one with a case of the Mondays...
There were quite a few "I want to punch someone in the face" status updates on Facebook today.
I feel ya.
Also on Facebook, is the whole "15 Albums in 15 Minutes" list.
I LOVE LISTS.
But that one... it's rushed and not comprehensive enough.
Maybe I will make a few lists of 15, fifteen minutes at a time...
In other news, I have been slacking on The Course of Happiness "project" I was going to start.
Yeah.
That whole "life changing experiment" thing...
Ahem.
Gotta get on that again.
Look where my priorities lie...
[Yep. I came up with that all by myself.]
That pretty much sums up a good chunk of my day.
I must not have been the only one with a case of the Mondays...
There were quite a few "I want to punch someone in the face" status updates on Facebook today.
I feel ya.
Also on Facebook, is the whole "15 Albums in 15 Minutes" list.
I LOVE LISTS.
But that one... it's rushed and not comprehensive enough.
Maybe I will make a few lists of 15, fifteen minutes at a time...
In other news, I have been slacking on The Course of Happiness "project" I was going to start.
Yeah.
That whole "life changing experiment" thing...
Ahem.
Gotta get on that again.
Look where my priorities lie...
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Surprise!
Isn't it horrible when you get blind sided by someone you thought was a friend?
Isn't it even more horrible when you lend them money and they don't pay you back?
I hope this person knows that I (as well as many others) see through their facade.
You're just a nobody in this area, always have been and always will be.
You have no friends - that should've been a huge warning.
You can't even attract a significant other because of your attitude - another warning.
You try so hard to sound smart, but you are just a pretentious little boy.
I just want my $200 back so this can all be DONE.
Isn't it even more horrible when you lend them money and they don't pay you back?
I hope this person knows that I (as well as many others) see through their facade.
You're just a nobody in this area, always have been and always will be.
You have no friends - that should've been a huge warning.
You can't even attract a significant other because of your attitude - another warning.
You try so hard to sound smart, but you are just a pretentious little boy.
I just want my $200 back so this can all be DONE.
Nerd to Hipster in One Day
Wow, long time, no update.
I need an app on my Blackberry so I can write on a whim.
My laptop is not always accessible when my thoughts are.
I guess I could write them down on paper, and type them up.
That seems like a lot of extra work.
My phone is always with me.
BB, make me an app so I can utilize!!
That's just my rant for the day.
The real reason for this post is to write about my fun Saturday:
Yesterday, Hubs and I went to the Baltimore Comic Con.
Whoa, NERD ALERT.
I was seriously one of the coolest people there, besides Hub's and his (comic)friends of course.
Ahhh, ego boost.
Other than meeting some cool people (AND Todd McFarlane, creator of Spawn), it was really boring.
I'm not going to lie.
There was really nothing there that interested me and I didn't want to go in the first place.
But I couldn't let Hubs go alone.
So, like a good sport, I went along for the ride and held all his crap while he browsed, shmoozed and googled.
[I'd like to point out there were also several other good wives/girlfriends at Comic Con, doing the same amount of carrying stuff, staring into space and smiling like they were having fun. Maybe we should start a club.]
All in all, I made it through and got some exercise to boot.
I AM excited for the NYC Comic Con. That one will be more up my alley - it's not all about comic books. TV and movie schtuff will be there to entertain me. And, it's in NYC, woot!
After my foray into Geekdom, I went the hipster route with my girls.
We went to this awesome place called HMAC (Harrisburg Midtown Arts Center), enjoyed some $2 PBR pounders and listened to the sounds of Eli Charleston and his ragtime music.
They had a costume contest so there were tons of people dressed in 1920s apparel.
It was hipster-ish, yes, but there was still a great amount of diversity, especially age wise.
I met some new people, looked cute and got drunk. Score.
I need an app on my Blackberry so I can write on a whim.
My laptop is not always accessible when my thoughts are.
I guess I could write them down on paper, and type them up.
That seems like a lot of extra work.
My phone is always with me.
BB, make me an app so I can utilize!!
That's just my rant for the day.
The real reason for this post is to write about my fun Saturday:
Yesterday, Hubs and I went to the Baltimore Comic Con.
Whoa, NERD ALERT.
I was seriously one of the coolest people there, besides Hub's and his (comic)friends of course.
Ahhh, ego boost.
Other than meeting some cool people (AND Todd McFarlane, creator of Spawn), it was really boring.
I'm not going to lie.
There was really nothing there that interested me and I didn't want to go in the first place.
But I couldn't let Hubs go alone.
So, like a good sport, I went along for the ride and held all his crap while he browsed, shmoozed and googled.
[I'd like to point out there were also several other good wives/girlfriends at Comic Con, doing the same amount of carrying stuff, staring into space and smiling like they were having fun. Maybe we should start a club.]
All in all, I made it through and got some exercise to boot.
I AM excited for the NYC Comic Con. That one will be more up my alley - it's not all about comic books. TV and movie schtuff will be there to entertain me. And, it's in NYC, woot!
After my foray into Geekdom, I went the hipster route with my girls.
We went to this awesome place called HMAC (Harrisburg Midtown Arts Center), enjoyed some $2 PBR pounders and listened to the sounds of Eli Charleston and his ragtime music.
They had a costume contest so there were tons of people dressed in 1920s apparel.
It was hipster-ish, yes, but there was still a great amount of diversity, especially age wise.
I met some new people, looked cute and got drunk. Score.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Random Thoughts 8/9/10
I used to be a "Golden Child", but then I spoke my mind.
I'm the one punished for speaking the truth - but karma is a bitch.
We need to stop acting like we're the "Police" of the World.
Let's concentrate on our own problems, in our own country.
Sometimes [like just now], I'll get a craving for chocolate - but have none in the house.
So I drink the Hershey's syrup - straight from the bottle.
Lamest voice on hottest man? David Beckham.
How about you just sit there, in your Armani undies and hush hush - don't speak.
My husband is an extremely talented artist.
He WILL be famous one day.
You heard it here first.
I'm the one punished for speaking the truth - but karma is a bitch.
We need to stop acting like we're the "Police" of the World.
Let's concentrate on our own problems, in our own country.
Sometimes [like just now], I'll get a craving for chocolate - but have none in the house.
So I drink the Hershey's syrup - straight from the bottle.
Lamest voice on hottest man? David Beckham.
How about you just sit there, in your Armani undies and hush hush - don't speak.
My husband is an extremely talented artist.
He WILL be famous one day.
You heard it here first.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Empirical Evidence
I purchased a book called The How to Happiness.
It's all based on empirical research and written by a psychologist who has spent the last 18 years figuring out the course of happiness, how it plays into our lives and how to attain it.
The psychologist and her colleagues were given a million dollar grant from the Institute of Mental Health and everything in the book is backed by facts/proof.
I just started reading it last night and haven't gotten too far, but I think I may chronicle my progress with the book/program here in my blog.
Basically it all boils down to a pie chart.
You have your set "well being level" which takes up 50% - this fifty percent is who you are. It takes into account your genetics and heredity and it's your "base" level that you return to throughout your life, through the ups and downs and in betweens. You can't change this 50% - it's just who you are.
Another part of the pie, 10%, is based on your circumstances in life, i.e. you relationships, your job, your wealth, etc. These are things that can be changed, but really, in the long run only play into your happiness so much.
The remaining 40% is what YOU CAN CHANGE. Forty percent of your life is in your hands.
The book, which is a self-help book (just backed up by evidence based facts which is extremely uncommon), will teach you the tools and exercises needed to harness what really makes you happy (for example, money will create happiness in the short term but not in the long term so that won't be part of harnessing your 40%).
All in all, I'm intrigued and I'm going to take on this journey and see where it leads me.
Will I be fulfilled afterwards? Hopefully.
Will this be the cure-all, end-all to my depression? No.
And the author clearly states that.
There is no false hope written in the pages of this book.
It's just YOU, your future in YOUR hands and all the information you need to be the happiest you.
She is not shy about the fact that this is hard work [not a quick fix], that it will take time, though eventually will become easier [much like everything in life].
Here's to the future. Cheers!
It's all based on empirical research and written by a psychologist who has spent the last 18 years figuring out the course of happiness, how it plays into our lives and how to attain it.
The psychologist and her colleagues were given a million dollar grant from the Institute of Mental Health and everything in the book is backed by facts/proof.
I just started reading it last night and haven't gotten too far, but I think I may chronicle my progress with the book/program here in my blog.
Basically it all boils down to a pie chart.
You have your set "well being level" which takes up 50% - this fifty percent is who you are. It takes into account your genetics and heredity and it's your "base" level that you return to throughout your life, through the ups and downs and in betweens. You can't change this 50% - it's just who you are.
Another part of the pie, 10%, is based on your circumstances in life, i.e. you relationships, your job, your wealth, etc. These are things that can be changed, but really, in the long run only play into your happiness so much.
The remaining 40% is what YOU CAN CHANGE. Forty percent of your life is in your hands.
The book, which is a self-help book (just backed up by evidence based facts which is extremely uncommon), will teach you the tools and exercises needed to harness what really makes you happy (for example, money will create happiness in the short term but not in the long term so that won't be part of harnessing your 40%).
All in all, I'm intrigued and I'm going to take on this journey and see where it leads me.
Will I be fulfilled afterwards? Hopefully.
Will this be the cure-all, end-all to my depression? No.
And the author clearly states that.
There is no false hope written in the pages of this book.
It's just YOU, your future in YOUR hands and all the information you need to be the happiest you.
She is not shy about the fact that this is hard work [not a quick fix], that it will take time, though eventually will become easier [much like everything in life].
Here's to the future. Cheers!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Quote Of The Day
"I'm fearless to the point of stupidity. Maybe I should have a little more fear."
- Angelina Jolie tells You magazine
- Angelina Jolie tells You magazine
Monday, August 2, 2010
Vagina = [not] a clown car
What is the obsession with procreation in this country?
For example:
Look at the Duggars.
That "mother" is out of control.
She's the equivalent of a puppymill.
That woman just keeps churning them out.
Don't give me that bullshit that you love each and every one of your 19 kids.
Do you even know anything about them?
[Like first off, their names - and not when you are being filmed for your reality show and need to rattle off each one, in order - and I'm sure you got the ability to reshoot that over and over until you got it right.]
What is J #8's favorite color? What about J #14 - what's his or her favorite band/song?
The poor older children are built in babysitters.
I'm waiting for one of those girls to rebel.
"Fuck you, Mom [and Dad, who is named JIM BOB]! I'm not a mother, I don't want to be a mother! I want to wear regular clothes! I don't want to feel pressured to get married, pop out children and be a housewife! I'm going to [insert city here] and I'm going to be a... [let's not go stripper; that's the go-to "wrong" profession for women with a bad childhood] ... owner of a hipster restaurant! I'm going to get an education from an actual school and I'm going to become a gourmet chef that cook with alcohol! And I'm going to be a lesbian and own dogs!!"
Seriously, it makes me so sad.
Let's practice zero population.
Zero Population
Then, there is the other issue with baby making... UNWANTED pregnancies.
Hey, government - you insist on having your hand in everyone's pots.
Let's get some IUDs in these bitches who complain they can't afford birth control.
Guess what is the cheapest birth control?
ABSTINENCE.
It's free, if you absolutely have no other options.
Didn't say it was the ideal birth control; but it's been proven to work.
I'm 26, I'm "experienced" and never once did I end up with a baby!
If you can't be responsible to use some sort of birth control (condom, pill, etc) then you are PART OF THE PROBLEM.
Which leads me to the welfare debacle and lack of mandatory drug testing for those receiving the welfare.
But that's a whole 'nother blog post, for another night.
For example:
Look at the Duggars.
That "mother" is out of control.
She's the equivalent of a puppymill.
That woman just keeps churning them out.
Don't give me that bullshit that you love each and every one of your 19 kids.
Do you even know anything about them?
[Like first off, their names - and not when you are being filmed for your reality show and need to rattle off each one, in order - and I'm sure you got the ability to reshoot that over and over until you got it right.]
What is J #8's favorite color? What about J #14 - what's his or her favorite band/song?
The poor older children are built in babysitters.
I'm waiting for one of those girls to rebel.
"Fuck you, Mom [and Dad, who is named JIM BOB]! I'm not a mother, I don't want to be a mother! I want to wear regular clothes! I don't want to feel pressured to get married, pop out children and be a housewife! I'm going to [insert city here] and I'm going to be a... [let's not go stripper; that's the go-to "wrong" profession for women with a bad childhood] ... owner of a hipster restaurant! I'm going to get an education from an actual school and I'm going to become a gourmet chef that cook with alcohol! And I'm going to be a lesbian and own dogs!!"
Seriously, it makes me so sad.
Let's practice zero population.
Zero Population
Then, there is the other issue with baby making... UNWANTED pregnancies.
Hey, government - you insist on having your hand in everyone's pots.
Let's get some IUDs in these bitches who complain they can't afford birth control.
Guess what is the cheapest birth control?
ABSTINENCE.
It's free, if you absolutely have no other options.
Didn't say it was the ideal birth control; but it's been proven to work.
I'm 26, I'm "experienced" and never once did I end up with a baby!
If you can't be responsible to use some sort of birth control (condom, pill, etc) then you are PART OF THE PROBLEM.
Which leads me to the welfare debacle and lack of mandatory drug testing for those receiving the welfare.
But that's a whole 'nother blog post, for another night.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Hey, Mormon.
[Let me preface this with the fact that I know all Mormons aren't "those" Mormons. However, from what I have seen firsthand/on TV - they really are.]
Quick, before my thoughts float away, only to return when I'm not near an outlet!
Oh, the gems that I lose every single day.
Polygamy.
Why is it always the man who gets multiple wives?
Why can't the woman have multiple husbands?
Could you imagine how perfect it would be to have a few husbands?!
You - fix things!
You - entertain me!
You - sex!
Ok, granted, I am only thinking about the positive aspects of a husband/significant other.
There is lots of bullshit and drama that goes along with being in a relationship.
[It can get overwhelming.]
I'm just daydreaming about the possibilities.
Since one man/woman can't have everything you need (no, they really can't - I'm glad you are googleyed in love with so and so, but that person has faults and those faults will eventually get on every last nerve and you will want to change them/question yourself) - lets just make our own "other", by using a few people to fill our voids all at one time.
And since this won't ever happen, there is nothing wrong with a little fantasizing on my part [or yours].
Quick, before my thoughts float away, only to return when I'm not near an outlet!
Oh, the gems that I lose every single day.
Polygamy.
Why is it always the man who gets multiple wives?
Why can't the woman have multiple husbands?
Could you imagine how perfect it would be to have a few husbands?!
You - fix things!
You - entertain me!
You - sex!
Ok, granted, I am only thinking about the positive aspects of a husband/significant other.
There is lots of bullshit and drama that goes along with being in a relationship.
[It can get overwhelming.]
I'm just daydreaming about the possibilities.
Since one man/woman can't have everything you need (no, they really can't - I'm glad you are googleyed in love with so and so, but that person has faults and those faults will eventually get on every last nerve and you will want to change them/question yourself) - lets just make our own "other", by using a few people to fill our voids all at one time.
And since this won't ever happen, there is nothing wrong with a little fantasizing on my part [or yours].
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